Wednesday, January 26, 2011


Psalm 33:18-22
18 But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
   on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
19 to deliver them from death
   and keep them alive in famine.
 20 We wait in hope for the LORD;
   he is our help and our shield.
21 In him our hearts rejoice,
   for we trust in his holy name.
22 May your unfailing love be with us, LORD,
   even as we put our hope in you.

Psalm 27:13-14
13 I remain confident of this:
   I will see the goodness of the LORD
   in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
   be strong and take heart
   and wait for the LORD.

Psalm 40:1-3
1 I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
      and he turned to me and heard my cry.
 2 He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
      out of the mud and the mire.
   He set my feet on solid ground
      and steadied me as I walked along.
 3 He has given me a new song to sing,
      a hymn of praise to our God.
   Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
      They will put their trust in the Lord.

Lamentations 3:22-33
22 Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
   for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
   great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
   therefore I will wait for him.”
 25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
   to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly 
   for the salvation of the LORD.
27 It is good for a man to bear the yoke
   while he is young.
 28 Let him sit alone in silence,
   for the LORD has laid it on him.
29 Let him bury his face in the dust—
   there may yet be hope.
30 Let him offer his cheek to one who would strike him,
   and let him be filled with disgrace.
 31 For no one is cast off
   by the Lord forever.
32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
   so great is his unfailing love.
33 For he does not willingly bring affliction
   or grief to anyone.

Today's news was clear: wait. To quote our agency worker, "it is neither good nor bad. The judge took your case and will have an answer in a week. So we wait." I disagree that it was neither good nor bad. It was good news. It was an answer to our prayers: wait.

We tend to focus on ourselves and what this means to us personally. But what if this process isn't about us at all? What if this entire process is for someone else? I'm not even talking about K. What if this process is for the judge? What if it's for a complete stranger that hears our story and is moved? What if it's for people we meet in K's country who see us giving everything we have emotionally and physically to adopt our son? What if it's for the orphanage workers who are being changed by taking care of our son in our absence? Are we willing to put our own desires aside to further God's kingdom according to HIS perfect time?

So please, if you've been praying for this situation, do not lose heart! Yes, it would have been awesome if God had granted our pleas in the way we asked and we got a court date today. But won't it be that much more awesome when he answers according to HIS will and in HIS time? How much better are his ways than ours?

So we wait.


  1. Tes,
    Yes, it would be awesome. I will continue to pray and continue to believe.
    I've been able to take some comfort in believing that maybe this is something God is using to cause me to grow. Slow, confusing, painful growth. Or maybe His plan is for someone else to grow or both. I don't know. Thank you for trying to find the lesson in this. Trying to find God in all this. He is faithful. Of that I'm sure.

  2. I'm amazed by your great faith, moved and humbled by your words. What an encouragement you are to so many even in your most stressful of times. But you're so right- God is cooking up something awesome for you, and through you He is touching the heart of so many others. God is faithful. He will provide!

  3. Beautiful perspective. I love it.

  4. You know...I thought more about most of what we were praying- that the judge's heart would soften and she would grant you guys a court date. Maybe it's just that God knows that her heart is not "softened" yet to Him and that's why this wait is happening. Our version of "softening her heart" had more to do with you guys getting a date to go get Kirill, but maybe God knows that what the judge needs is even beyond that. Maybe this woman needs her heart softened in regards to HER spiritual journey and relationship with God. God has reminded me many times lately of just what you mentioned. Maybe the things that happen in my life are actually for someone else and less about me. I will continue to pray that she will see no other choice but to reunite you guys with Kirill, but also that whatever God is doing in her is allowed to come to fruition.

  5. Just wanted to say I am also humbled by your grace at this most difficult time. I had found your blog awhile back, but then lost it. I've recently read the FB messages to pray for the judges heart. I wanted to let you know we are praying!! Your sweet boy has the most amazing little grin and I can tell just by his picture he's a mischievous little guy like my Danny :). Praying we wait.