Thursday, January 14, 2010
So I Spoke Too Soon
I'm not joking, within MINUTES of publishing my previous post I received an email from our adoption agency social worker that said I needed to redo the documents I overnighted two days ago because the date on them did not match the date on our home study. I burst into tears. Then I pulled it together and rushed around to get the paperwork signed and notarized (again), and overnighted via FedEx (again). BTW, that would make a grand total of $100 I've spent overnighting the same papers. It's really not the paperwork, expense, or even the frustration with the process of adoption. I'm just starting to feel like I WANT MY CHILD HERE WITH ME. If you've ever been pregnant, you know the feeling you get around 8 1/2 months gestation? That feeling that if you have to be pregnant one more second you will go insane? That's the only feeling I've ever had that compares to how I feel now. But it's compounded because I know my child is in an orphanage when he could be at home with a loving family. The more days he is there, the more days I feel like I'm losing with him. I do take comfort in knowing that God is with him. I believe that and I'll post more on it later...I heard a really neat story that I want to share about that. But, I don't have time now as I'm off to cook dinner and clean before Clayton wakes up. Please pray for patience and that everything from here on out will move quickly and smoothly!