Thursday, January 14, 2010
So I Spoke Too Soon
I'm not joking, within MINUTES of publishing my previous post I received an email from our adoption agency social worker that said I needed to redo the documents I overnighted two days ago because the date on them did not match the date on our home study. I burst into tears. Then I pulled it together and rushed around to get the paperwork signed and notarized (again), and overnighted via FedEx (again). BTW, that would make a grand total of $100 I've spent overnighting the same papers. It's really not the paperwork, expense, or even the frustration with the process of adoption. I'm just starting to feel like I WANT MY CHILD HERE WITH ME. If you've ever been pregnant, you know the feeling you get around 8 1/2 months gestation? That feeling that if you have to be pregnant one more second you will go insane? That's the only feeling I've ever had that compares to how I feel now. But it's compounded because I know my child is in an orphanage when he could be at home with a loving family. The more days he is there, the more days I feel like I'm losing with him. I do take comfort in knowing that God is with him. I believe that and I'll post more on it later...I heard a really neat story that I want to share about that. But, I don't have time now as I'm off to cook dinner and clean before Clayton wakes up. Please pray for patience and that everything from here on out will move quickly and smoothly!
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I am seriously feeling your pain today. I too just paid even more money to once again overnight documents that are holding up the process of bringing our son home! I completely agree...it's not the money or the extra paper work, it is the overwhelming longing to have my son HOME that causes the frustration!
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain. As an adoptive and biological mommy, I think adoption is waay more stressful - and we've had a perfect experience, dealt with a wonderful agency and birthparents, but the emotions don't even compare with giving birth to your own child. Adoption is so intrusive. I love it and would do it again in a heartbeat (if I were younger!). Good luck in the final stretch!
ReplyDeleteAWWW Tes! Praying for you guys and your sweet little Sarge
ReplyDeleteYou were so right in your earlier post... this is most definitely SATAN!! Stay strong and focused. You are doing great and he will be here before you know it. We will pray, HARD!
ReplyDeleteits such a hard place isnt it! Just know you arent alone in "the waiting place". When I get emotional I just have to remember "Im expetant!" In many of my "adoption blogs" families are going through some pretty tough things. We have to trust that there is power in prayer and that God is at work!
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